Life As I Know It

Hey Hey Hey

2005-04-04T23:35:27Z

Wow i really stopped bothering with this but im gunna try and keep up this time around

long time

2005-03-07T23:11:05Z

I havebt updated in a long time cause i like xanga better

Bored'em

2005-02-06T02:08:53Z

Body:
1. First best friend: Gerard Farrell
2. First love: Jen
3. First real kiss: Jen
4. First screen name: Psuedopod1
5. First pet: Cat
6. First car: still waiting

LASTS:
1. Last cigarette: long time ago
2. Last kiss: Can't remember
3. Last good cry: not a clue
4. Last beverage drank: Coke
5. Last food consumed: yogart
6. Last crush: n/a
7. Last phone call: Christine

RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Best Friend? Still Gerard Farrell
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: No

FASHION STUFF:
1. Where are your favorite places to shop: Pac Sun
2. Favorite item of clothing: Spitfire shirt

SPECIFICS:
1. Do you do drugs: No
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: Pantiene Pro V
3. What are you most scared of: Death and Hieghts

FAVORITES:
1. Colors: Black and Blue
2. Foods: Lobster,Chicken Parm., Christine’s salsa
3. Subject in school: Science
4. Animals: Cat
5. Sports: Soccer, Swimming, track Lacrosse
6. Movie: Pirates of the Caribbean, Shrek 2

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: Yes
2. Smoked: Yes
3. Made yourself throw-up: Yes ( to get out of going to school)
4. Skinny dipped: Yes
5. Been in love: Yes

CURRENT:
1. Clothes: Hurley shirt, Element pants
2. Music: none
3. Make-up: none
4. IMs: not on AIM

LAST PERSON:
2. Hugged: Caitlyn
3. Imed: Amanda
4. Last person who slept at your house: Gerard
5. Last persons house you slept at: Christine’s(last night)

RANDOM:
1. In the morning I am: Exausted
2. Love is: the best and worst thing ever.
3. I dream about: Lots of stuff

Ten years ago, I:
1. I was in 1st grade
2. Was 6
3. Spent all my time with Gerard

Five years ago, I:
1. I was in 6th grade
2. Started Band
3. Dating jen

One year ago, I:
1. I was a band dork
2. Hung out with Gerard
3. A Freshman

So far this year, I(m):
1. In the play
2. Was in Chorus
3. Became a coffee addict

Yesterday , I:
1. Went to School
2. Went to Christine’s
3. Watched Shrek 2

A - age : 16
B - band listening to right now: All American rejects
C - crush: None
D - dad's name : Stephen
E - easiest person to talk to: Gerard/Alanna/Amanda/Danielle/Christine
F - favorite band at the moment : None
G - gummy bears or gummy worms : Gummi worms
H - hometown : Brooklyn, New York
I - instruments u can play: Clarinet,Oboe,Flute,Bassoon,Saxaphone,Piano
K - kids: Eh None
L - longest car ride ever: was 4 hours going to jersey we got lost
M - mom's name : Candace
N - number of siblings : 3
O - one wish : I can turn back time
P - pet peeve[s] : I don’t know
Q - favorite quote : None
R - biggest rival: Don’t Know
S - song you sang last : It’s Possible
T - time you wake up : 6:30 weekdays 12 weekends
U - unknown fact about me : Im easily Annoyed
V - vegetable you hate : None
W - worst habit(s) : Always on the defense
X - x-rays you've had : On my foot
Y - yummy food : Chips, and cake
Z - zodiac sign : Leo

The Basics

[name] Nick
[nickname] Nicky, Martini Glass, Nicholas Martinious
[the day I had my first breath] 8-21-88 at 3:15
[zodiac sign] Leo
[born in] Brooklyn, NY
[Where I live right now] East StroudsBurg, PA
[height] 5'5
[righty or lefty] Righty
[eye color] Hazel
[hair color] Dirty Blonde

Right now

[the pants I'm wearing] Element Pants
[the shirt I'm wearing] Hurley
[the shoes] Etnies
[the underwear I'm wearing] Boxers
[the taste in ur mouth] coke
[Ur mood] Depressed
[R u tired] not really
[Depressed] I just said I was
[Music ur listening to] stop asking

Love

[Boyfriend/Girlfriend] no
[their name] I don’t have g/f
[R u a virgin] Nope.
[Children] Someday
[Ur crush] none
[Have u ever been in love] Yes
[do u believe in love at first site] Yea
[sexuality] Straight
[have ever cheated] Yes
[where u eva hurt] yea
[Ur greatest regret] Having sex
[song dat describes u now] I dunno
[turn ons] I dunno
[turn offs] Anoyying voices, people who thinks there better than everyone else, people who thinks there the hottest thing out there, bossy people
[favorite place to be touched] Hy head(hair)
Music

[do u play any instruments] I said that
[wat r the instruments if u play any] Clarinet,Oboe, Flute, Saxaphone,Piano, Bassoon
[wat is ur favorite song]none
[Ur favorite bands] none
[favorite genre of music] Ska, punk
[did u eva go to a concert] Yes
[wat was the most u spent on a concert ticket] 35
[wat is the least u spent on a concet ticket] Free
[do u buy merchandise at concerts] sometimes
[r u ashamed of any of the music u listen to] no
[do u take band in school] Yes
[If u do, do u like band] eh I change my mind everyday(lol)

Books

[current book ur reading] None
[book u want to read] The Chocolate war
[ur life is based on which one of ur favriote books] nonr
[did u eva right a book] no
[do u want to be a writer] I hate writing.

What do u prefer

[pepsi or coke] Coke
[Eminem or Justin Timberlake] Neither
[Josh Hartnett or Orlando Bloom] Orlanda
[Maroon 5 or linkin park] niether they both annoy me
[Mcdonald's or Burger king]McDonals
[thong or panties] Thong
[briefs or boxers] Boxers
[Jordan's or Nike] Niether
[cappuccino or coffee] Both
[ Vanilla or chocolate ] Both
[Rocker or rapper] Rocker
[cell phone or beeper] Cell
[xbox or playstation 2] PS2
[baby phat or eco red] Niether
[pen or pencil] Pen

Internet

[how long do u stay online] 24/7
[wat do u do online] AIM, LJ, Xanga, Games
[do u go on those dating websites] No
[do u hook up wit people on aim] NO
[do u do research on the internet] Yea
[do u have aim] Yea

Random

[do u have a diary] No
[do u have a job] No
[r u a people pleaser] Eh I don’t know
[would u say u r attractive] Some say im cute
[do boyz always ask u out on dates] No and lets kep it that way
[when u walk down the street do heads turn] I don’t know
[r u in the in crowd or a low life reject] ……
[do lots of people hate u] I hope not
[r u one of those snobby cheerleaders who think there the shit] No
[when was the last time u talked on the phone] 15 min ago
[who was the last person u talked to] Christine
[who was the last person u hugged] Caitlyn
[when was the last time u cried] long time ago
[do u hate anyone] Yes
[wat r u doin right now] This
[do ur parents hate u or love u] Love me
[does ur whole family think ur a discrase to human kind] No

friends

[would u say u have lots of friends] Yes.
[name ur bestfriends] Gerard
[do make friends with people quickly] Some
[do u have any famous people friends] No
[do u make friends over aim or on emails] Not really

So confizzled

2005-02-06T00:01:02Z

THIS YEARS SUCKS SO Far im going through some really rought times and this poems mean the world to me

Terrified Tears

The face of an angel is all that is here,
One beautifull freckle equals one terrified tear.
Not ready to leave but has to go,
Wants to go back, but god says no.
Leaving your life is a scary thought,
I guess it's something that can't be fought.
A mother, a father, a sister, and friends,
A meaningfull life that suddenly ends.
An angel is what she was meant to be,
Now just think of all she can see.
Looking over her family night and day,
Saying I Love You in her own special way.
In the night we sleep, in the day we cry,
While she watches us all from her star in the sky.

~Lyndsie Chowitz~

i think that is the best poem in the world...

i havent done much so you havent missed anything

Drink up YE hardies Yo Ho

2005-01-18T19:44:04Z

Pirates of the Caribbean is by far the BEST movie i've ever seen. even though it took 2 days and 3 hours to finsh.. Well saturday i went to Christine's and we were gunna head over to Alanna's until Christine got a phone call her nieghbor was sick and need Christines help to go to the store. Well i got stuck with watching 3 kids and i was like imma go get Alanna so me and Alanna watched Christines sister and her nieghbors to daughters. Christine got back and we went to my PYO Concert... They said it was amazing i thought we did well..then Alanna, Anthony, Christine, and I went to McDonalds were we saw gerard working it was good times. Then Chrisine, Alanna, and I went to my house where me played CRANIUM..Yea so me and christine are smarter then Mrs. Laura and Alanna and my mother. then around 1ish in the AM i i got into a fight with my dad and got kicked out the house so i went to Christine's with Alanna we started to watch pirates of the Caribbean but we only got trough 15 minutes of it. Sunday I spent the day with Christine and we watched Tv and then Some magic movie on Disney. then we watched Pirates of the Caribbean and every 20 minutes or so we were interupted and it was like 11 and i had to go pick up my brother so i brought Christine with me and then we went back to her house and finally finished the movie around 3 AM and it was kinda to slippery outside to drive home so i stayed the night at Christine's and was attacked by hjer cat all night

BLAH

2005-01-12T20:55:49Z

yea so i havent updated in a while im really sick im sneezing, coughing, Vomiting, Sore throat, headach, dizzyness.. the whole 9 yards. i havent done much so ya didnt miss much...i basicly slept

Oh No!

2005-01-03T03:46:47Z

Oh No! My Snake (its real) is sick.....Someone help him please lol...Im taking him to the doctor! how cute is that.. im really hyper and in a good mood and im kinda too lazy to type so C ya

Its So UnFair

2005-01-01T22:03:35Z

Well let me tell you i had a kick ass party last night it was halarious..i had Danielle,Gerard,Alanna,Christine,Jami,Kristin,Josh, and My Brother there BRIAN was supossed to come but he had to go to his dads..We told Jokes and i didnt my Stuart Impression and my Danielle/Brittany Spears impression..GOOOD TIMES and my and Danielle STUFFED our faces with Cupcakes and Pretzels. Danielle Fixed my Xanga its has music now and a picture of my Puppy cause i hate all my pictures and isnt he SO cute lol..and i changed my backround (thanks so much danielle). Then Gerard Came and i got my GREEN DAY cd i love it.. and my brother and gerard got into a "Clay" fight they were throwing it all over it was funny. Then we hung out some and had a good time..2 Minutes before the ball drops Gerard and Stephen(my brother) well Stephen was hitting Gerard with a belt it as funny and then it Happened we said GOOD-BYE t0 2004 and Hello to 2005 damn ill miss 2004 just cause i liked it. Then I started PETTING danielle it was funny i did that for like 20 minutes and then my hand got tired so it was time for danielle,Jami, and Kristin to leave so they left. Then Me Alanna and Josh Went over to Alanna's and waited for josh's thenGerard and Stephen followed we talked and then Josh's dad picked him up. Then my dad (drunk)lol picked Gerard and Stephen up and he missed the house and Gerard and Stephn ertr like you missed the house and he was like i know so he turned around and was pulling in the RIGHT driveway and Stephen was like Wrong house and my dad was like Whoops and was backing out and was like you fuckin lair and Gerard was like no he right so my dad was like then why is Joe's car in the Driveway and Gerard was like that not Joe's car its Bob's next door and he was like oh and started to back out again and was like you fuckin Bastards and they laughed i thought that was so funny. So Alanna and I came back to my house and we all talked and stuff. What a great night thanks you guy/girls you rock..

So heres whats UNFAIR We get a call from FASIONROCK (yes one word) and was like We would like nick to come down to Orlando for a shoot.(its and acting business) and i needed to be down there in 30 days or i cant do it and i only have enough money to for me to go down cause my mom is tight on money cause of fines cause of my brother and i dont think i can make it and its so unfair so hopefully i can make it...

Eh

2004-12-28T05:23:17Z

Well i got my district band results and the judges had opposit views im glad i got an 11 on sight reading i suck at sight reading lol and i got a 9 on tone and a 5 on tone and ya know but i could of done better i thought i did good but i guess not..o well i have 2 more trys

My christmas was fun..i have the best nephew in the world hes halarious. aw i miss them my sisters and my uncle and everyone else damn i miss my nephew.... imma visit more often

OMFG

2004-12-24T00:41:09Z

JUST FUCKING TAKE ME NOW DAMMIT. I FUCKING HATE THIS MOTHERFUCKING SHIT. OMRG I HATE SCHOOL I FUCKING AT RUTKOWSKI YOZVIAK AND VOGLINO........FUCK SCHOOL FUCK EVERYHTING... I HATE THIS FUCKING HOLIDAY I HATE HALF THE FUCKING PEOPLE I KNOW CAUSE THERE FUCKING IDIOTS AND RIGHT NOW THE WORD FUCK ITS A COMING THING I WISH I WOULD GO TO SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP OR GET SHOT OR FREEZE TO DEATH I HATE LIFE I HATE EVERY FUCKING THIS ABOUT IT........

Suicide

2004-12-23T00:22:16Z

OH MY FUCKING GOD...I get to spend Christmas eve home all fucking alone....I wish i would just die..or maybe i dont have to wish i mind as well do it myself..... err i hate YOU so much ( you know who you are ) i wish nothing but the worst for you... FUCK YOU... im at a loss for words cause im so fucking mad.......

YAY i got a date tomorrow...... Maybe thing will turn around

Lost and confused

2004-12-19T04:32:27Z

Well i havent updated in a while so ill just tell you what happened since last friday...

-----Friday-----Well Friday Gerard, Alanna, And Christine came over. It was fun then i got in the mood to do christmas stuff and i kinda left them with my brother :-/ and i put up my fake tree and decorated. i then fell alseep and Alanna and Christine went home. I woke up and me and Gerard Played the sims 2 for like an hour then we went to sleep.

-----Saturday-----My stupid Brother took my alarm clock which i had set for me to get up for my swim meet and since he took it when he snuck out i didn't wake up in time and Gerard woke me up and i tried to get to the school as fast as a could but i missed the bus i was so pissed. Then i went home all sad cause i really wanted to go and me and Gerard played the sims 2 some more then i drove him to woke (with my mom in the car) and then i went home played the sims 2 and then went to Gerards while he was at work. I called mike a kid who lives by him and we hung out then we went to Kyms house and we hung out from 5:30-11:30 Thats when Gerard got home and we all hung out until 2:50 and we walked Kym home and Mike went home. Gerard and i Played X-Men Legends for 2 hours and we lost...many times. Then we went to sleep.

-----Sunday-----I went to church with gerard and Kym. It was okay but after Kym left fot her Christmas Party Gerard and I went to the store i Bought him a donut and then we headed back, and went it was time to go i saw Chris Wyatt.. no clue we went to the same church. The i went to tag day at shop rite ( i think thats how you spell it damn them and how they spell it) i was there about an hour and a half and i had to go. I went back to Gerards and we played X-Men again and we got farther. The he went to work and i went home. i ate diner and did boring stuff. I fell Asleep at 7 and i woke up at 11:30 and i could go back to sleep and i finally feel asleep at 5:45.

-----Monday----- it was 6:00 and i wouln't get up so my mom turned off my clock and let me stay home. I woke up at 11:55 and did my 10 page essay..well some of it. then i cleaned my room and then chatted some and i did nothing that whole day and i went to sleep.

-----Tuesday-----Horrible day well Chorus was fun and then i went to voglino and we went to the library and the door slammed on my foot and i was in alot of pain. We set up an appointment with the Doctor.( which me and Melissa both go there and not once have i seen her there) and we cancled on us so i missed swimming for nothing..not like i could swim cause my foot.

-----Wendsday-----Eh better day then Yesturday. My damn foot still hurt. So we set up another appointment and he cancled again. DAMN HIM so once again i missed swimming for nothing even though i couldn't swim. And since we were in Stroudsburg we got our tree.

-----Thursday----- Same thing hurt foot Yada Yada. So i couldnt go to the swim meet cause i had a doctor appointment finale and i really wanted to go to that. So after school since the apointment was at 6 stayed and tried out for the play i did ok i got nervous and angela helped me she was a big help. So i went in a read my line and i look at all of them for that and then i had to sing. so the piano guy was like ready and i was like yup and the song started i started to sing i couldn't look at Bakner or Yozvaik cause i had a feeling to laugh so i didn't look at them and i looked at Bob and i went flat on the song but oh well. i got home did the doctor thing and i need an X-ray. And i watch Day After Tomorrow kick ass movie.

-----Friday----- No School for me. i went to the doctor and its a contusion( a bruise through al the layers in my foot. skin,muscle,tendons, and what ever else is there) and Last time i had one i needed a cast but this time they only wrapped it and i need to use the elivator and i cant swim for 2 weeks! ERRR Coach is gunna kill me. I put the tree up.

-----Saturday----I decorated the tree and taht stuff it was fun and now im just sitting here talking with melissa.

Ya know how my Entries before were all EMO well there not gunna be anymore :-D idk but im happy again and i like it... Hopefully it will stay that way

Sad and Depressed

2004-12-14T03:13:51Z

I finally found the perfect girl and shes taken

i am tired of being nice i just wanna go back to being how i was.. no one likes the nice guy

i just wanna be bad..let loose give up on everything i once believed in.. and that good old music used to help but no it doesnt the thing i loved most is just slipping away.................... UGH

IM spinning out of control and i cant stop.........im falling and there is no bottem to stop me

LIFE SUCKS THEN YOU DIE!!! THATS ALL THERE IS TOO IT

Whatta day Whatta day

2004-12-07T02:50:50Z

This day was okay i guess, lets see here i went to school it was fun chorus was fun and voglinos was great swimming was cancled and i was in the band room with the music fundimentals people cause yozviak left. and matt raj wouldnt let me leave the tuba room i felt like a mouse stuck in a hole... i came home and fell asleep and i found out my car is WRECKED my dad was coming back from NY and there was ice and the car skid into a pile and its gunna cost alot so im getting a new one YAY..... and peguins rule i have this funny thing of penguins ask me for it

Brawl At The School hahahaha

2004-12-05T01:12:12Z

State Police are investigating what they call a "large fight" that broke out at a school in Pike County Friday night.

Police tell Newswatch 16 that juveniles and adults were involved at the fight at East Stroudsburg North High School in Lehman Township. It started just after 9:00 PM. Police still don't know what touched off the whole thing.

Police are checking tapes from cameras at the school to see who is responsible, and they promise charges will be filed.

------------WOW--- just wow..

now if me and my posse of penguins were there wed kick ass lol

District Band

2004-12-05T00:10:31Z

Today was a fun day, it started off like so....Anthony picked me up and we went to the school at 7:15 we got there and we got on the bus it was fun then we picked up the south kids and headed to Parkland we got there and its just WOW a really nice school... and like people said there bathrooms are awesome lol......we sat there and practiced and it came my turn to play i did really good im proud of my self i was nervous but when i got in there it went away which is REALLY GOOD lol and i went to play my solo and the guy who bring you in and just kinda sits there kept coughing as i was playing i felt like stopping and saying excuse me im trying to audition here lol but i didnt and then the rest of the day was great i hope everyone did well well find out how well we did in 2 to 3 weeks

Dude Whatta Kick Ass Day

2004-12-04T04:06:29Z

Well this day went great, I went to school lol did stuff 10th went down to band and played the District solo for Bakner,Anthony,Scott,Dawn,Najwa,Sean A, Dan bove, Matt, and Brian, and they played as well. Then i went to go play for Mrs. Yozviak and my clari broke and bakner gave me his and it sucks ass so corinee is letting me use hers (thanks a million) then i went to swimming and we hung out for a bit and we were maditating and we were laying down and listening to a tape on the pool deck and i feel asleep. then the meet started it was AWESOME i like it alot. Everyone did GREAT People beat records and did just an all out great job Guys won 77 Whooo! the girls did really good too i wish i didnt slow does so much i wanted to drown myself lol( not really) thx for those who can to support us...Meg d, Melissa, Kevin, and Bo Jangles. Then i came home ate and got to my solo and i praticed from 8-10 2 hours and half the time i was repeating the same thing over so i had muscle memory it it better than it was and now im sitting hear talking to kevin well c ya

NiCk

LOOK OUT FOR THAT.......car!!!

2004-11-30T03:34:19Z

Well my day went just well i woke up at 9:30 i was like im suppose to be at swimming and my parent were like well by the time we get there you will only have an our than ill have to pick you up again and im not doing it err they got me so mad.. So then i was on my way top the mall and i picked up gerard and we went to the mall i was driving rather well i got to the mall and got my stuff and i saw matt w's mom there i see her there every time i go its rather funny but no matt with them this time only dana ( i thinks thts hows its spelt lol) i was on my way home after 5 hours of shopping i dropped gerard off and i was leaving his community and there was a car come at me and his brights were on and i was slowing down and i thought he was on his side and he wasnt and my mom was like LOOK OUT FOR THAT *BAM* i hit him i was like son of a bitch this fucker is going down and i got out of the car and was like Why werent you on your side of the road he was like there was a spider *thinks to self so he goes into my lane cuz of a damn spider* well thank got its was only a little thing cuz i was going slow and so was he so the car is fine but his has a dent and then i got home and me and my brother got into an argument and he erases 200 words with definitions to ach of them and sentences and 90 similies, metaphors, and thing of imagery. SO I HAD to restart the whole thing im MAD..

Crazed

2004-11-28T04:05:24Z

GOTH.................I THINK IMMA GO GOTH.....................................................................YES

Awesome day

2004-11-27T21:50:32Z

Awesome day I GOT OVER HEr :-D sure ill miss it but who cares. Lets see i woke up to 8 and went out for breakfast came home and slept until 12 talked to my cousin online i working on my Song it soudns really good i dont know if i want it to be suspensful or sweet and slow. Then i worked on my scales for District band only 1 week away im so nervous and the district solo went well and i relzxed for the rest of it....

I gave up

2004-11-27T05:44:34Z

.......................I gave up tonight my heart was broken. Unless a merical happens its gunan stay that way..............................................................i think this might change my whole attitude......screw being mr nice im gunan do the things people wouldnt expect i think i might live on the wild side from now on i mean theres no one to love and there is no love to hold me back..............................................And hopefully i will be happy then if not then i think i ll go goth

Errr

2004-11-27T02:46:13Z

Some people can ruin a relaxing day and now may day is ruined thanks to a certain person and they know who they are

I Just Don't Know Anymore

2004-11-26T19:09:34Z

I dont know anymore for now i've given up...................

I HATE HER SO MUCH
And then I LOVE her so much
She Has no clue
and if she did She probly wounldnt care
Im sick of it i wanna............. GET OVER HER
but i cant

I hate this i wish i had a had amnesia so i couldnt remeber that i loved her so it wouldnt hurt as much.

bored

2004-11-25T17:24:50Z

im so bored i went to the future and i did nothing all day

Convinced

2004-11-25T16:01:50Z

I had said before that ive given up on love and some good people gave me good asvice as you all know lisa did and then i got this Anonymous reply and it helped me alot and IF your that person please tell me or if you know who it is because i wanna thank them for it...

last night was kick ass thanks for inviting me and the diner was great

Happy Thanksgiving everyone